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I had a desperate need for gravy this evening. Maybe I'm low on protein? Anyway, after the several hours it took to make (I just finished now. After starting at 7 or 8.), it's nice that it came out well. If not replicable at all.

I think I'll be done with this term when we finish grading next Monday. Maybe with time to go to the contra? Maybe not. Although, if not, we'll have been grading for about six hours, which would be not so cool.

Maybe by Monday I won't be wanting to go contra-dancing? This week there were only non-awkward contra dancers, to Katie's shameless disappointment and my disappointment mixed with relief. (Well, except the guy who I'm increasingly certain is a math prof at UIC, in vaguely my area, but whose name I haven't picked up on. And he's awkward in another way entirely, like how he keeps wanting to talk about math at contra dances.) But probably I will go to the U of C dance this weekend, because I'm bored and senseless, and Katie's leaving for home soon, and then it will be awkward and I'll have to try to figure out whether or not I regret it.

I wish I didn't make decisions which I feel are irrational way in advance and then stick to them. It's so confusing.

I had a nice conversation today at school and am now wondering why I don't talk more to the people I actually like. They exist! They don't make me sad about math! It's excellent. (Still shocking: math boys with social skills.)

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I'm sad today. In part because we took the cat to the vet again, and that's always so traumatic for me. Especially because she never really gets better: now her eye that's bad gets better each time, but always the other gets messed up. It's disheartening. I wonder whether it's worth the trouble; I don't think I can stand to go to the vet every three weeks or so for the next, say, five years.

( Another reason why I'm sad... but which has a silver lining. )

And another happy thing is that we went with my mother to an art fair downtown this afternoon, after the veterinary excursion, and there was a lady there from Toronto who made the most excellent hats! Really, the very most excellent. And I will get one for a present sometime, from my mother, and it will be so exciting. And lovely. These hats. I cannot express how much I liked them.