Friday, May 14th, 2010 11:01 am
This is me whining about how I haven't had any cooking gas this week and probably won't until next Monday or Tuesday. I am very annoyed with People's Gas right now. Very.

Other things are good. I went to my parents' last weekend, where they had some very tiny foster kittens that my brother (also visiting) had named after Niels Bohr and Erwin Schrodinger. His girlfriend was mad because she had some other scientists she thought they should be named after, though I can't remember now who.

Some kids are having class outside across the street. It seems to involve a lot of hopping.
Wednesday, February 24th, 2010 10:13 pm
New mathematical knowledge is elusive.

However, tomorrow is my birthday, and it is snowing like crazy here and that makes me feel special and loved. (Yes, by the weather. Deal.) When I was a kid the tradition was to get up early on my birthday and go sledding, if there was any snow. There pretty much aren't hills in Chicago, and I've been very lazy lately with a cold and cramps, and that probably won't be different tomorrow morning. So sledding is right out. But I feel all happy and special anyway.

And, happy early birthday, Debbie!
Sunday, January 31st, 2010 10:54 pm
I passed my orals! Now all I have to do is produce new mathematical knowledge and I will graduate. That should be... different, anyway.
Tuesday, January 19th, 2010 10:45 pm
+ I feel ready for my orals. I have a week and a half to refuse to learn math in case doing so makes me confused. Awesome!
+ Also I think my advisor and I roughly agree on what I should do after my orals.
? I'm confused about how that came about, actually. Maybe I mentioned it before, what I wanted to do? Because it's not some problem where the literature is all Someone Must Do This. I don't think.
+ On the other hand, it feels like a totally logical next step.
! But not if you're into n-categories. Like Jacob Lurie. If everywhere were Northwestern this would explain a lot, actually.
? But yes if you're into algebraic geometry, I think. Also like Jacob Lurie. Confused again.

- One of my sections this term makes me very sad. They should pretend to be interested in learning, because then I would be less sad.
- They need not even pretend to be that interested, really. Just as interested as the other freshmen would be fine.
+ The other section looks awesome by comparison.
- Except one of them sent me a two sentence email like this: "I'm having trouble with the homework. I understand we didn't go over it Monday because of MLK day, but I am having trouble" There was no period at the end so maybe he accidentally sent it too soon, but really, what am I supposed to do with that? I'm not even seeing them this week, as far as I know.
+ But another one came to office hours! And I got to show her about the adding-exponents rule. It is my favorite.
+ I was worried I would have to grade with the undergrad TA but she seems fine to do it by herself. And so motivated!
! I have new stickers. They are all colorful and smiley! Yay!

~ I think I might be high on sugar.
+ I get to sleep at night now. Even the cat thinks so.
+ David
+ Katie came for dinner yesterday and we played games and went to the dance and she made a magnet-gecko on my fridge.
- I should wash the dishes now.
- Also probably I should buy some math books.
+ rye bread I made
+ maybe Cedar will send me a different rye bread recipe?
Tuesday, December 15th, 2009 12:55 pm
In honor of the season, I give you my new favorite Christmas carol. I hadn't realized it was one, since I first heard it at a Folksing and it is largely devoid of such things as shepherds, angels, and good cheer.

Tuesday, December 15th, 2009 03:25 am
I'm up too late.

Also this edit: pleasantly, apparently not something to be annoyed about anymore. we'll see what happens to my posting habits. as was probably the case before. bed, self, bed. has me annoyed with lj more than their usual shenanigans gets me, so I have gone through with the creating-a-dreamwidth-account backup plan of doom. Which was not in fact very filled with doom, but then, I am tired and my judgment is impaired, so, I don't know.

I think I shall repeat the part about being tired and having my judgment impaired now. I am tired! I should have gone to bed hours ago. I started going to bed hours ago. I can't remember why I didn't get there...

Also, that cooking experiment... failure. But it will still be good tasting. Just not how I meant for it to be.

A brief list of things I ought to do tomorrow:

- call the vet about more cat food
- go to the dentist
- math
- clean up cooking experiment so David doesn't know what it was

maybe that's all? but then later

- cut my hair
- more christmasy things

because I have gotten less realistic about homemade christmas gifts as I have aged to the point where I can only think of one thing I have just bought for someone this year and that is really my brother's influence, as he has bought it and I am going to pay him back for half. *checks list* Yeah. I am silly. And luckily have a free schedule around Christmas, though maybe if I didn't I'd be less stupidly ambitious.

This is a rambly entry and no doubt it would seem tedious if I had any judgment! I should stop it!
Friday, December 4th, 2009 12:01 am
+ snow
- failed cooking experiment? I guess I won't know until morning.
- still SO CONFUSED about math. And ready to move on to a new article, I think it's been at least a month.
- students who suddenly realize they don't understand math and expect me to be constantly checking my email and available to meet with them in the two hours they're apparently free. IT IS READING WEEK. Am I wrong to assume that they have lots of unstructured time this week? Things to do, yes, but they could Do Those Things at unreasonable hours and Meet With Me when I'm at school. Right? This has been true in all other terms. I'm so confused... (apparently a theme?)
+ wrote a proposal for my orals. in case you wondered what I learned at school this term, with a side of what I intend to learn next term... )

+ David and I had breakfast with my mom and aunt this morning. It was gingerbread and apple crisp. Yay dessert-breakfast!
+ cookies at Sarah's tomorrow. Yes, I am prioritizing this over meeting with students. Clearly I do not care whether they learn math and am a bad TA. But good at cookies!
? I have some invitations to the Google Wave. (It gets a definite article because it is suspicious and new! That is a rule of grammar.) Do you want one?
Sunday, November 8th, 2009 04:55 pm
Hey, Carleton folks who have good pictures from their Carleton days, there's a flickr pool some folks on Caucus started with the intent to make a calendar for 2010. (Something involving the proceeds going to the AAF, maybe? I forget.) Anyway, I have only crappy photos from Carleton, but maybe you don't? It's here:

It's gorgeous weather here this week. Yesterday there were people sitting on the sidewalk across the street knitting. Maybe Waldorf-people, but I didn't go ask. And they looked big for Waldorf-people, plus it was Saturday.
Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 05:38 pm
Yesterday I was going to post an angsty screed about annoying emails my students sent me, but David came over and I got distracted. And I'm not so annoyed now.

Instead, the answers from that meme. The random thingy really liked Emmylou Harris for some reason.

1. Hypnotized. Ani DiFranco.
2. Where Will I Be. Emmylou Harris
3. Beautiful Boy. Anna Laube
5. Hard to Make it. Tracy Grammer (but indeed written by Dave Carter).
7. Country Girl Medley. Crosby Stills Nash & Young
8. Lion Dreams. Noe Venable.
9. At the Ballet. A Chorus Line.
10. Sweet Old World. Emmylou Harris.
Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 07:53 pm
And perhaps I am also, as I shall now do the sheepy thing of posting a meme that [ profile] the_neon_one and [ profile] z_zeg have just posted. That would be the "guess the song" meme, and I couldn't recognize any of either of their songs. Oh well. Guess titles/ artists:

1. So that's how you found me, rain falling around me, looking down at a worm with a long way to go. And the traffic was hissing by, and I was homesick and I was high.

2. The streets are cracked, and there's glass everywhere. And a baby stares out with motherless eyes, under long gone beauty on fields of war, trapped in lament to the poet's core.

3. I want to cover you, I want to cradle you, I will never let you go. Sweet sweet songbird, you're singing to me, yeah you open up what's closed and you help me be free.

4. He saw the magistrate taking every dollar and leaving five cents. So he said, you can't do that to my people, can't crush them under your heel...-- Jayne, The Hero of Canton, from Firefly. Guessed by [ profile] seirai.

5. "Lonesome stranger, won't you share my bed," the sidewalk siren at the bus stop said. "Love is a tear in a salty bay..."--A Dave Carter song to which [ profile] skolem_hull does not know the title.

6. Arrows of neon and flashing marquees out on main street. Chicago, New York, Detroit and it's all on the same street. Your typical city involved in a typical daydream, hang it up and see what tomorrow brings.-- Truckin', by the Grateful Dead. Guessed by [ profile] rabiya_al_basri.

7. Winding paths through tables and glass, first fall was new. Now watch the summer pass so close to you. Too late to keep the change, too late to pay, no time to stay the same, too young to leave.

8. Someone changed the world while I was sleeping, turned the sky into the ground. I took off my armor and I laid it down.

9. Daddy always thought that he married beneath him, that's what he said, that's what he said. When he proposed he informed my mother he was probably her very last chance.

10. The breath from your own lips, the touch of fingertips, a sweet and tender kiss, the sound of a midnight train, wearing someone's ring. Someone calling your name, somebody so warm cradled in your arm.

That's it.

Oh, except today Jeremiah and I wrote a math problem involving Luke Skywalker buried in carbonite marbles. It was going to be snow, since I think we left him on the ice planet Hoth, but that didn't work out in the way of having a well-defined math problem. But we were out-geeked by Barry having a problem involving Mr. Darcy and related rates.
Thursday, October 15th, 2009 08:31 pm
I got an email today from the instructor who I mentioned visited my class Tuesday. (An activity which instructors may well be meant to do each quarter with each TA, but which has never been performed by any other instructor for whom I TA'd.) It was about two lines long, with an attachment in the form of a letter. Seriously, he sent me a letter via email. With a blank bit where if it had been printed out he would have signed it.

It was a really nice letter. I mean, it was an evaluation of my teaching, and as such it consisted largely of a summary of what I did in class Tuesday, with some commentary and some suggestions about what I could have done better. But it said nice things (specific nice things! also general nice things) and he'd forwarded it to all the conceivably relevant people in the department (Paul, department chair, person in charge of graduate students, person in charge of calculus) because he was so pleased. I don't know why this last makes me so happy, but it does. So.

Also the suggestions make me happy. They were mostly about the examples I'd chosen to work, which I do choose a bit too much in haste and at random, I think. He did advocate using the back board* (!) which I guess I'll ask about, since it seems so odd to me to do so.

* In the set-up, common in larger classrooms dedicated to math, of having one fixed board and two in front of it which move up and down on some sort of pulley system. The front and middle boards move independently, of course, and what I (and most people I've seen) do is write alternately on the front and middle boards, having the one not in use (covered by the most recent work) pushed up above.
Tuesday, October 13th, 2009 07:46 pm
In something like chronological order.

- Why, why? Why, cat, will you not lie down in the bed when you obviously want to lie in the bed? Why must you keep getting in and out and waking me up?
- Spilling water on my toast because I was startled by David spilling water on the table.
- Trying to update worksheets in the 10 minutes before I left the house, but being too spastic/ flustered/ the math webmail sucking to much for me to even open half the files.

+ My bus came! I got on it!
(-) This was an event?
- Smashed my finger in the stall door in the bathroom. It still hurts now.
- Was still flustered when TAing. On the day when the instructor, whom I respect, was observing.
+ I can do calculus even when flustered.
+ I know the names of some of my students.
(-) Again with the "This is an event?"
+ I updated the worksheets at school! (This is so an event, because I had to use the command line (read, guess how to use it for this purpose, as I hadn't previously tried) to do so, which is scary like CS117.)
+ Women in Math lunch.
- Making lunch having been part of my hurry to leave the house and also unnecessary.
+ Someone knew a person who believed the phenomenon of math departments having tea each day was a sign mathematicians are good at social interactions, as opposed to a sign that some departmental secretary once realized they only leave their offices when promised food. And forget to eat, otherwise.
+ Paul said that the observing instructor liked my class. And that he was hard to please. Apparently I am allowed to put that in the "win" column.
+ Meeting with Paul was otherwise nice, in that I had learned something I could tell him about and liked thinking about.
- Yes, Paul, I should have said something earlier about wanting to change topics.
+ Maybe Beth found a place where I shall get married?
+ I bought stickers to put on the good quizzes.
+ Some of them are vegetables with smiley faces.
+ The quizzes were so easy to grade. The rubric was so nice.

+ Eating my lunch for dinner.
+ cat
Friday, September 25th, 2009 04:57 pm
The vet's office kind of got their act together after my last post. This morning they called me! As they claimed they were going to, but I had little faith.

The cat may or may not have kidney disease. Apparently she needs bloodwork, but first we need a new vet. Ack.

She has, however, apparently forgiven me for leaving her at the vet all day. Yay! Lovey cat!
Thursday, September 24th, 2009 04:23 pm
Ironic how the receptionist at this vet this morning was complaining about the poor service at the other Chicago vet I've liked at all.

Ironic because this vet has been a horrible experience, service-wise, today. So much so that although I feel like they're probably the most reasonable/ competent of the vets I've been to in Chicago (sadly, 4) excepting eye Care For Animals (not a good all-purpose vet!) I'm definitely not going back.

the somewhat profane reasons why )
Wednesday, September 16th, 2009 10:59 am
Ah, so, I think it's time to tell you folks.

David/ contra boy/ [ profile] skolem_hull and I are getting married.

For real. And yeah, it's trippy and fast and confusing. I'm engaged? To a person I can legally marry, no questions about the state and the ID we happen to be carrying at the moment? How did that happen?

I don't really know how to answer that question. It feels like one minute, there I was, minding my own business and not believing I would really ever want to marry anyone, and the next I was totally certain I wanted to marry this particular person. I have no idea how the transition happened. Below the surface of my mind, is probably the best answer. So I spent awhile trying to get my conscious logic-y brain used to the idea, and kind of succeeded, and proposed. And David accepted!

So, I'm happy and excited and bemused, and there'll probably be a wedding next summer.

And I've joined the freaky world of engaged/ married folks. Freaky!
Thursday, September 10th, 2009 01:37 pm
I should be doing math but instead I'm being in that stage where I've made a decision but haven't come to terms with it and seem incapable of thinking about anything else.

I'm not sure what the productive thing to do is here. I can't quite believe it's just to act on the damn thing, but maybe? It sure as hell doesn't seem to be "attempt to do math", but we have reached the point where Paul thinks I should do more work...

So, fine, attempt to do math. That'll be interesting. And surely more will get done than if I just don't try.
Saturday, August 29th, 2009 03:56 pm
Again I mutilate one of my mother's recipes, but it still tastes good in the end. This one is a book club (etc.) dessert, the kind of dessert we used to eat the mess-ups and leftovers of, but which weren't usually made for events that actually included children as participants.

You can make a lot of mess-ups by making them in a round pan and cutting squares. That's what I did this week, so I could bring some to Cedar's party and feel virtuous about the large number I left at home.

Cheesecake Brownies )
Wednesday, August 26th, 2009 12:32 pm
This week's third batch of pickles is in the kettle processing, since I read that there actually is a reason to boil the closed jars, despite what my (considerably aged) Fannie Farmer thinks. The other batches are unsafe! But not so unsafe that I'm bothered; I'm pretty sure I would notice if I opened them and they had mold or yeast growing in there.

I guess I should do math today, and show up at Maria's birthday dinner like I told her I would. It's tempting just to watch TV, listen to the radio, and do CRAFTS! On the other hand, it's kind of tempting to do math, since yesterday I learned something all by myself and that was so very exciting.

I don't have a TV or a radio. Just the internet. Huh. Wait, no, I do have a radio. But I don't listen to it.

I hope this version of dill pickles is more likable to me than the last version...
Friday, August 14th, 2009 05:19 pm
I find myself counting the things on the home-canned shelf in my cupboard every now and then. In case you're interested:
Read more... )
It makes me so happy to look at it.
Monday, August 3rd, 2009 08:58 am
Which is perhaps more angsty even than necessary. Perhaps not.. )

Borrowed from [ profile] the_neon_one.